Sometimes we question why stuff happens, or why it doesn't happen. Here I was, feeling great, all set for a positive report from the oncologist, only to be told my scans showed a deteriorating situation, further growths in the lungs and lymph nodes. And chemo should not be put off any longer! So after much soul searching, heartache and prayer, that is the course we have decided to go down, supported by my 'supplement regime' which will, we hope, help keep my immunity system strong and protect me from the worst ravages of all the side effects of the chemo. I'm scheduled to start the 6 month course very soon - possibly within the next 2 weeks, a mix of tablets and intravenous chemo - all designed not to cure (they admitted a total cure was not possible) but simply extend my life by a few months, maybe a year. So I now have a 2 year window!
I get the feeling I'm in this for the long haul - miracles might happen, but not as I pictured them, and certainly not in the time-frame I imagined. So I'll hang on to the memories of the Canning trip, and press on with all the projects I have in the pipeline, and continue to live one day at a time - every day a new beginning. Thanks for being there for me - dont give up, theres a silver lining somewhere. Its just a little hard to see at the moment.
Take a look in the mirror Murray - you are the silver lining throughout this. You are an inspiration to us all. We are all behind you, now more than ever. Love to all you guys, the Mt. Dixons x x x x
ReplyDeleteYes, you are certainly 'in it' for the long haul. We, all your family and friends, and most important our God are 'in it' with you.
ReplyDeleteKeep 'blogging' and writing Murray - your readers are growing in number and wisdom.
Stay strong - Lawrence and Rosalie and Chch Dixons.
I agree with the other two Murray. You are not alone we are with you and God is there right beside you all the way. Thanks for the diary. It was good reading. Jo Ann asked for a copy too. She is probably going on dialysis soon. I will get my diary finished writing it up and try to get you a copy. Like you said it is from each perspective. I havent forgotten my promise to lend you The Canning book, I will send it u soon. Remember the sunshine and the fun and God's medicine - "A merry heart doeth good like a medicine". We had a lot of laughs and lots of fun to remember.
ReplyDeleteOur love is with you - Cliff and Beryl
Well dear friends, if you are in this for the long hall then so are we ... with you. We may not understand God's methods but we will still choose to trust him. But please remember this: when your faith is feeling stretched, shaky or even absent ... there are a lot of us who are throwing our faith into the mix too, so you can relax a little - rest in God and let us carry the load for a while.
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Selwyn & Sue
It is in witnessing response to life's refining fire that we truly see the face of God reflected in His servants and His kingdom draws near to us allowing us a glimpse of His glory. Thank you Murray for the privilege and blessing of allowing us to walk this road alongside you living the life of the one anothers - sharing, bearing, caring, upholding and loving one another. Our heartfelt prayer is that the Great Physician draws ever nearer that we may witness His power and glory in the healing of a life lived for Him. God bless. Allan & Jennifer
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