Countdown - to a New World

It was only a few weeks ago we were enjoying the beauty of Pauanui with ALL the family, all 14 of us squashing into tiny bach, and Mike and Ginas even tinier caravan. And since then, a fabulous road rip to Wanaka to deliver a car to some old friends. To be frank that trip was not without its medical challemges! But we enjoyed it, and lapped up the last of a beautiful summer at Pauanui, and all the splendour of autumn
on the way to, and at Wanaka.
Since then, reality has hit home big time. The reality of the lung and bone tumor explosion has taken its its toll on the old body, and pain relief has had to increased to morphine level, and a fairly high level at that. The combined side effects of all the pain relief also has to be controlled, so its a juggling act throughout the day, playing Russian roulette on the drug control dosage. Such fun!

Friends/family have really stepped up which is wonderful, bringing meals, spending time with Fay, Knowing that I'm not the best company right now. Hospice is also involved (that shows you're on the road with the' no exit' sign showing). We'd love to get down to Pauanui one last time, but that could be a couple of weeks away, with the 'to do and to see' list growing by the day..

I'm not even too sure I'll be able to keep this blog going for long - the pain relief drugs do weird things to your head, and concentration levels, writing abilities etc are certainly not what they were. But yes, I'm saying strong to the supplement and ever tweaked diet changes - no point changing back to what was, and besides, I've gotten so used to them its become  part of my regular lifestyle now.

So keep the texts, emails, calls, cards coming - we can't always guarantee you'll get an answer, but we always love and cherish the thought behind them. As I've said often, it can be a lonely fight sometimes, and to get the unexpected encouragement of YOUR message helps the journey, even in these final stages, helps make it just that much more tolerable, that much more bearable.
Almost home - its going to be a GREAT celebration, that much I can promise.